April 1, 2010 - Email
Message - Joe.
Hi. We sold the Toyota 4Runner. Please cancel the insurance ASAP. Hopefully you
are doing well. Send email when you can. Thanks.
Howie.
April 1, 2010 - Email
Message -
Hey Girls. I am planning to stay in for the next couple days. Want to be alone
and think. Hopefully you both understand. Will be online tonight but taking
tomorrow off the computer. Send email when you can.
April 1, 2010 - Email
Message - Marilyn.
Hi. I really need you to do a favor for me and Akiko. Now we are online and can
contact everyone except our friend Paula. She does not use the computer. You met
her when you went to the baby shower. Please call her for us at xxx-xxxx.
I want you to tell her the following.
We apologize for not contacting her over the last few months. Tell her we went
through a very difficult time and in fact several times I almost returned home.
We will send our address next month and be in more constant contact.
Thank you very much for doing this for us. Send email when you can.
Howie, Akiko.
April 1, 2010 - Email
Message -
Hey Girl. Really enjoyed talking with you too. Much nicer to actually meet
though. No plan but a lot of thinking now. Going to eat and drink soon. Going to
try and send longer email to you tonight if not drunk. Last night was a couple
bottles and probably same tonight. Keep smiling. Send email when you can.
April 1, 2010 - Email
Message -
Ikuko.
Hi. I am drinking a lot tonight and very long conversation with Akiko. Maybe I
am going to leave and teach abroad for a few months. We are going to wait to
make the school in the house until we can make a decision. Now my English site
is very famous and I can use it as a base to get a good job abroad. I need to
finish the house before leaving though. I am going to see if you send email
tonight. Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 1, 2010 - Email
Message -
Ikuko.
Hi. I am going to be fifty from tomorrow. I am taking a day to be alone. It is
difficult time for me. You are an incredible woman. I can respect you. I am
going to be off the Internet for a day. Please understand. Then you and I can
meet and talk again. Please wait for me. I want you to dream of beautiful
things. Good night. Talk to you again.
Howie.
April 1, 2010 7:35 am - Email
Message - Valerie.
Hi. I want you to be the last email I send before turning fifty in about thirty
minutes. I am drunk to get through this time. I want you to know you are in my
thoughts all the time. You cannot possibly know your importance to me. Anytime I
am worrying about and hoping you and I can be together again as a family. I am
there for you anytime. You need to always know this. I love you and miss you
very much. Send email when you can.
Love,
Dad.
April 2, 2010 - Email
Message - Jim.
Hi. I turned fifty and spent the day with Akiko and Shai at home. Posted about
it on my site. Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 2, 2010 - Email
Message - Linda.
Hi. I turned fifty and spent the day with Akiko and Shai at home. Posted about
it on my site. Send email when you can.
Howie.
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April 3, 2010 - Shai is Really Sick Now.
Since yesterday Shai began running a fever
and is really sick now. We took him to get checked and it
turns out he has some kind of virus. He was prescribed three
different types of medication. Hopefully he will feel much
better soon. It really sucks seeing your kids sick. They
cannot tell you what is wrong. They can only be miserable.
Pretty sad. |
April 3, 2010 -
Email Message - Jim. Hi. Quite a week this
was. Shai is really sick now. Akiko and I took him to be checked and it turned
out he has some type of virus. He threw up on me and I thought it would be a
good idea to take this opportunity to send email. We gave him a fever reducer
and other stuff now and hopefully he will feel much better tomorrow. Send email
when you can. Howie.
April 3, 2010 - Email
Message -
Ikuko. Hi. I made it through the last couple days. Spent a lot of time
reflecting and thinking. Now Shai is very sick. Akiko and I took him to get
checked today and he has a virus. He has been running a fever and he threw up on
me which is really unusual. Maybe he will be a little better tomorrow. Anyway,
hopefully you are both doing well. Already know the dude returned home this
weekend. Please say hi to him. Been thinking of you both and miss talking to
you. Planning to do some work outside tomorrow. It would be nice to talk again.
Send email when you can. Howie
April 3, 2010 - Email
Message - Jim.
Hi. I am getting ready to work on the house as usual but wanted to give you an
update. Shai is much better today. It is supposed to get warmer this week and
this should make a difference. Akiko really wants to work and will most like
begin looking for a job within the next couple weeks. No doubt you are enjoying
the warm SD temperatures. There is a chance we might not be able to chat
tomorrow. Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 3, 2010 - Email
Message -
Ayumi.
Hi. Quite a week this was. Shai is really sick now. Akiko and I took him to be
checked and it turned out he has some type of virus. He threw up on me and I
thought it would be a good idea to take this opportunity to send email. We gave
him a fever reducer and other stuff now and hopefully he will feel much better
tomorrow. Really not trying to be picky but you did not send anything the other
day. Turned fifty now. Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 3, 2010 - Email
Message -
Ikuko.
Hi. I am actually beginning to get back to normal after spending the last couple
days reflecting and thinking.
My back continues to be a problem though.
Now Shai is not feeling well and much of my attention is going to him.
Akiko and I were able to talk about many things and is seems mostly she wants to
be more independent.
She wants to go out and work full time.
She is not the type who likes to depend on anyone.
Actually I am the same but like it if someone wants to depend on me.
With other girlfriends many of them depended on my for many things.
I worked well because of same thinking.
Akiko likes to be alone and thinks much differently.
We are going to see if things get better once she is working again.
I am going to stay and beginning next week going to really work towards getting
the house finished, especially the classroom.
Many changes coming.
Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 3, 2010 - Email
Message - Linda.
Hi. I am getting ready to work on the house as usual but wanted to give you an
update. Shai is much better today. It is supposed to get warmer this week and
this should make a difference. Akiko really wants to work and will most like
begin looking for a job within the next couple weeks. No doubt you are enjoying
the warm SD temperatures. There is a chance we might not be able to chat
tomorrow. Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 4, 2010 - Email
Message - Jim, Linda.
Hi. I agree next week will be better for chatting. The little dude is much
better tonight and acting as usual. Japan is getting warmer and finishing up
many projects. Really hoping to get the school going the end of this month. Many
students waiting. Send email when you can.
Howie, Akiko, Shai.
April 4, 2010 - Email
Message -
Ikuko. Hi I really really really really enjoyed seeing you and talking with you
today. I know you need to work tomorrow but hopefully you can find the time to
send a long email when you return home. Until then. Howie.
April 5, 2010 - Email
Message - Valerie.
Hi. I am really happy you told me about this. No news about it in Japan. Was
working on the house and not online though. I am relieved you are fine of
course. Yeah totally understand about the coolness factor and scary thingy.
Spent this week trying to work on the house even with back problems. Might be
finished with most of the projects this month but not sure. Let me know if you
can chat soon. It would really reduce the distance between us. Your brother is
really sick this week with a fever and some kind of virus. A bit better tonight
though. Akiko will be getting a job soon. She kinda reached her limit being home
all the time. I love you and miss you. Send email when you can.
Dad.
April 5, 2010 - Email
Message - Mayumi.
Hi. I want to send email tonight. Nothing much happening. Been working on the
house as usual. Really tired though. Akiko is looking after Shai. He is still
not feeling good. Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 5, 2010 - Email
Message -
Ikuko.
Hi. I wanted to see you today. I was working upstairs. A few times I was sure
you were outside. I went to look but you were not there. Send email when you
can.
Howie
April 5, 2010 - Email
Message -
Ikuko.
Hi. Today was kind of difficult.
Tonight drinking a full bottle of wine.
Was working outside in the back and front.
Then working on the hallway upstairs.
My back is not good again but kept working until the evening.
I want to finish the house projects.
I want to see you and talk with you.
I want you to ask any question about me if you want.
Even a very personal question is good.
Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 5, 2010 - Email
Message -
Actually I am still waiting for you to answer the question directly.
Want to know what you feel about me now.
April 6, 2010 - Email
Message - Jim.
Hi. Me and Akiko found bees in the house. Yuk. Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 6, 2010 - Email
Message - Linda.
Hi. Me and Akiko found bees in the house. Yuk. Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 6, 2010 - Email
Message - Mayumi.
Hi. I am drunk now. Akiko is sleeping on the couch. The BEE problem sucks. Do
not want fucking bees in the house. It sucks. This house is a piece of shit but
I like the house anyway, and I like the neighborhood and I really like my new
friends like you and Ikuko. Even with all the problems, I can be happy in this
place. Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 6, 2010 - Email
Message -
Ikuko.
Hi. I woke up today at 2:30 am.
Shai was not feeling well.
Akiko and I spent an hour making him feel better and sleep again.
Then we ate breakfast.
At around 4:00 am began painting.
Then I waited for a long time on the veranda with my camera waiting for the
sunrise.
It was very beautiful.
I thought about you.
I think you would enjoy watching the sunrise together for sure.
Then I made over 100 kg of concrete in the back.
Then I was painting again.
Then found bees in the house.
It is awful for me.
Then my back was problem again.
Maybe if you touch my back it is better.
I am wondering if you are good for working on my back.
I can give you something back you want if you do this.
I am not sure where you can do this to me if you want.
I was drinking a lot tonight.
Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 7, 2010 - Email
Message - Jim.
Hi. Me and Akiko thought there was a roof leak which turns out to honey seeping
in through the ceiling. It warmed up the other day and all the bees residing in
the roof woke up and were all over the yard. They want about $500 to come out.
Today was not warm and the bees were sleeping. Then I took off the outside wood
and sprayed. Should be interesting to see what transpires when it warms up again
this week. More house fun. Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 7, 2010 - Email
Message - Linda.
Hi. Me and Akiko thought there was a roof leak which turns out to honey seeping
in through the ceiling. It warmed up the other day and all the bees residing in
the roof woke up and were all over the yard. They want about $500 to come out.
Today was not warm and the bees were sleeping. Then I took off the outside wood
and sprayed. Should be interesting to see what transpires when it warms up again
this week. More house fun. Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 7, 2010 - Email
Message -
Hi. I read your email from before.
I agree with you.
This is exciting.
Recently I am thinking about you throughout the day.
You asked about today.
Need to take out a tree because of the bees.
Then I worked on the front yard.
Then I washed the wall in the back of the house.
I am preparing to build a new room.
Then I sprayed the bees with a chemical.
Tell me about your day.
Now drinking and waiting for you to send email again.
April 8, 2010 - Email
Message - Jim.
Hi. Now Japan is getting much warmer and we are spending much more time outside.
This weekend me and Akiko are taking Shai up to the mountains for cherry blossom
viewing. Hopefully you are all doing well. Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 8, 2010 - Email
Message - Jim.
Hi. I kinda blasted them with spray. Really di not want to but because of Akiko
and Shai no choice. Really want to be able to use the front yard. It seems like
the problem is going to go away. Still need to take out some of the ceiling to
see the extent of the hive. Yuk for sure. Anyway, enjoy the tournament. What the
heck are you doing up at this hour. Must be an old guy thing. Kidding. Actually
completely understand. Talk to you again.
Howie.
April 8, 2010 - Email
Message - Jim.
Yeah totally understand. Been working on the house every day and lost a lot of
weight. Now sleeping really good and even hair is growing back a lot. This is
like a dream to be in the countryside of another country with not much to worry
about. I think about you guys often. Even though really happy in Japan we miss
you guys a lot. Hopefully we can all meet soon. Thank goodness for the Internet.
At least we can talk and see your faces. Send email when you can.
April 8, 2010 - Email
Message -
Actually they come to look at the line without calling. It was the same for us.
They will call you when they need to come into your house to install the line.
It will be very cool when you get the Internet soon.
April 9, 2010 - Email
Message - Jim.
Hi. I spent the last couple days working on the laundry room for Akiko. Trying
to at least finish the outside framing and boards today. Supposed to get tons of
rain on Monday. Tomorrow we are going up to the mountains to see the cherry
blossoms. It is called hanami in Japanese which means flower viewing.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hanami
Then planning to work on the bees during the middle of the week as the
temperatures will be much cooler. Hopefully you guys are doing well and no doubt
keeping busy. Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 9, 2010 - Email
Message -
Ikuko.
Hi. I was thinking about you.
I was working on the back laundry room much of today.
Planning to work tomorrow on the back again.
If you come walk to the back of my house and visit.
Need to go to the building supply store in the afternoon.
I want to see you.
Going to read the other email you sent.
Howie.
April 9, 2010 - Email
Message -
Ayumi.
Hi. I am exhausted now. Been working on the house every day. Now working on the
laundry room in the back for Akiko. We found bees in the attic of the house. It
really sucks. There is honey dripping on the inside wall. Now trying to get rid
of them. Anyway, drinking every night and enjoying my new friends and the
neighborhood. Know you are gonna do good on your job. Maybe I can visit you when
you get settled. Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 9, 2010 - Email
Message -
Yes but will try to be in front of the house.
Now many bees and it is not as easy to work there.
April 9, 2010 - Email
Message - Linda.
Hi. I spent the last couple days working on the laundry room for Akiko. Trying
to at least finish the outside framing and boards today. Supposed to get tons of
rain on Monday. Tomorrow we are going up to the mountains to see the cherry
blossoms. It is called hanami in Japanese which means flower viewing.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hanami
Then planning to work on the bees during the middle of the week as the
temperatures will be much cooler. Hopefully you guys are doing well and no doubt
keeping busy. Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 9, 2010 - Email
Message -
Nobumitsusan.
Hi. I want to apologize again for not writing sooner.
Hopefully your back and knees are much better now.
It will be nice to see you soon.
The last couple weeks were difficult.
My back was not good but needed to work on the house.
Then it was warm for a few days.
Me and Akiko discovered bees living in the house.
It is quite a problem.
Next week going to work on this.
The following week would be good to meet.
Please send email when you can.
Howie.
April 10, 2010 - Email
Message - Jim.
Hi. We are not going to be able to chat tomorrow. Akiko and I made an
appointment to meet with the bee guy. More updates about this situation during
the week. Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 10, 2010 - Email
Message -
Ikuko.
Hi. I wanted to talk about many things.
Last night the Internet was not working.
Now is working with no problem.
I was able to finish the laundry room.
Really want to show you my work.
Today we are spending the day with the family.
Can send email tonight though.
Really impressed with your English.
Anyway, enjoy your day and talk tonight.
Send email when you can.
Howie. |
 April 11, 2010 - Hanami - Flower Viewing. Yoshino Mountain cherry blossom
viewing at Yoshino Mountain, Nara, Japan. Today
we went up in the mountains to a town called Yoshino which
is famous for Cherry Blossoms in the Spring. Thousands of
trees can be viewed at different elevations allowing
visitors to see the flowers at various stages in the
blooming cycle. Ready
to leave.
Wikipedia - hanami information |
 Shai
is on the train and excited. |
 Actually
was able to get seats. |
 Small
train station. |
 Yoshino. |
 Cherry
trees and bamboo. |
 Hiking
on the way up. |
 Beautiful
trail. |
 Japanese
lantern. |
 Sake
made from cherry blossoms. It was really delicious. |
 Beautiful
tree. |
 Free
sake tasting. |
 Getting
ready to eat, drink, and look at the flowers. |
 Shai
really wanted a beer. |
 Relaxing
picnic. |
 Relaxing
picnic. |
 Shai
eating ice cream. |
 And
more. |
 And
more. |
 And
more. |
 Wiped
out from too much sugar. |
 Beautiful
tree. |
 Cherry
blossoms. |
 Shai
ready to hike back. |
 Shai
with family. |
 Us. |
 Us. |
 Shai
wiped out. |
 Train
ride home. |
April 11, 2010 - Email
Message - Jim.
Hi. Akiko and I took Shai to see the cherry blossoms today way up in the
mountains. It was awesome. Pictures will be posted soon. Send email when you
can.
Howie.
April 11, 2010 - Email
Message -
Hey girls. Really wanted to see both of you and eat oyatsu but not sure what it
is. Actually we were not home from early this morning until the evening. We went
to Yoshino to see the cherry blossoms. We walked and took the train in order to
drink alcohol. Then the family came back to the house for dinner. Going to eat
cookies and tea and then online again. Send email when you can.
April 11, 2010 - Email
Message -
Ayumi.
Hi. Akiko and I took Shai to see the cherry blossoms today way up in the
mountains. It was awesome. Pictures will be posted soon. Send email when you
can.
Howie
April 11, 2010 - Email
Message -
Ikuko.
Hi. Yup I went to see the cherry blossoms today.
It was very beautiful.
I drank a lot of beer and ate a lot of food.
Then I went to sleep in the grass.
Really tired and going to sleep after sending this email.
I walked up the mountain pushing the stroller and carrying all the food and
other things in my backpack.
I walked many miles today.
The room in the back took a couple of days to build.
It is not finished but good enough for laundry for now.
Tomorrow the bee guy is coming.
It will be raining.
I am planning to paint the walls upstairs.
I want to exchange email again with you tomorrow night.
I want to see you again.
Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 12, 2010 - Email
Message -
Now I am working about 12 hours every day to finish the house.
I really want to teach English.
Today paid company about 400 dollars to get rid of bees.
Want to work again.
The house will be mostly finished this month.
I am going to begin teaching beginning of next month.
I want to see you more.
It is difficult in this neighborhood.
Maybe you and I could do language exchange at your house.
Would mean more time together to talk. Send email and tell me what you think.
April 12, 2010 - Email
Message -
Hey it is a really important question.
Prefer to talk to you directly about all this and not in email.
It is difficult to find private time to talk with you.
The time will come for you and I to talk for sure.
For now you and I can talk other things online.
Tell me if this is good for you.
Going to drink tea and eat cookies then back online.
Send email when you can.
April 12, 2010 - Email
Message -
No, it is easy for me to look after baby anytime.
I am not a typical man.
Can do things other men cannot do.
Want you to understand about this.
April 13, 2010 - Email
Message -
Ikuko.
Hi. I want to tell you many things but it is difficult in email.
Many miscommunications are possible.
Want to you wait until you and I get the chance to talk.
Then going to answer your questions.
Send email when you can.
Howie
April 16, 2010 - Email
Message - Jim.
Hi. Akiko and I spent about 400 dollars to get rid of the bees this week. There
was no choice. Interesting story though. Gonna post about it on the site soon.
Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 16, 2010 - Email
Message - Linda.
Hi. Akiko and I spent about 400 dollars to get rid of the bees this week. There
was no choice. Interesting story though. Gonna post about it on the site soon.
Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 19, 2010 - Email
Message - Jim.
Hi. I thought we were finished with the bees but they came again. This time is
was thousands. Akiko was screaming as thousands of bees were swarming around the
roof of our house. Going to post about it this week. Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 19, 2010 - Email
Message - Linda.
Hi. I thought we were finished with the bees but they came again. This time is
was thousands. Akiko was screaming as thousands of bees were swarming around the
roof of our house. Going to post about it this week. Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 19, 2010 - Email
Message - Jim.
Hi. I am not good about knowing what to say about these things anytime.
Me and Akiko and Shai went to say a prayer before.
We were hoping everything would turn out good with your friend.
Tonight was drinking a lot and trying to find the correct words.
All I can say is we are thinking about you guys anytime.
We want to send you strength to get through this difficult time.
Please do not worry about sending email now.
We can all chat when you return home.
Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 19, 2010 - Email
Message - Mayumi.
Hi. I am planning to burn some wood early tomorrow. I wanted to tell you in case
you plan to do laundry. I was going to do it today but Akiko noticed thousands
of bees again. The company came out again. Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 19, 2010 - Email
Message - Prease wait. Im out now.
Ikuko.
April 19, 2010 - Email
Message - Hi. Actually the bees guys came
again and were very nice.
It was free.
They spent a lot of time today again.
Now the bees are gone for now.
Akiko was running because of bees.
It was crazy.
My arms are not good from working.
Now I am drunk again and need to sleep.
I want to say goodnight.
I am very tired of many things now.
Really want to talk with you.
Send email when you can.
April 20, 2010 - Email
Message -
Ikuko.
Hi. I am really tired tonight.
There were bees today again.
Was not happy about it.
Worked outside until almost dark tonight.
Looked for you but you were not coming.
Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 20, 2010 - Email
Message -
Nobumitsusan.
Hi. Akiko and I would like you to come for lunch on the 29th of this month.
Please let us know if your wife will be coming with you and the type of food you
like.
Really looking forward to seeing you.
Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 20, 2010 - Email
Message - Marilyn.
Hi. Akiko and I want to say Happy Birthday to you. Recently we are not on the
Internet much since we are very busy. Akiko is looking after the baby and I
continue to work on this house every day from the morning until night. Recently
the temperatures warmed up and we found tons of bees in the house. We needed to
pay about 400 dollars and even though the company came out four times already,
the bees are still around. We were wondering if you guys set up the camera on
your computer. Maybe we could chat sometimes. Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 23, 2010 - Email
Message -
Hi. I am really tired.
My elbow is not good for many days.
I am drunk again.
I am trying to stay awake to talk with you.
Send email when you can.
April 27, 2010 - Email
Message - Jim.
Hi. I am happy you returned home.
We were able to get rid of the bees this week finally.
Pretty incredible story even for the bee company.
Keep wanting to post about it but spending every day working on this freaking
house.
Akiko is planning to work soon.
It would be nice to chat with you next week.
Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 27, 2010 - Email
Message -
Nobumitsusan.
Hi. Akiko and I really are looking forward to seeing you and your wife this
week.
See you on Thursday at 12:00 pm.
We will be making spicy nabe.
Talk to you soon. Until then.
Howie.
April 27, 2010 - Email
Message - Linda.
Hi. I am happy you returned home.
We were able to get rid of the bees this week finally.
Pretty incredible story even for the bee company.
Keep wanting to post about it but spending every day working on this freaking
house.
Akiko is planning to work soon.
It would be nice to chat with you next week.
Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 29, 2010 - Email
Message - Jim.
Hi. Akiko and I cannot chat with you this week. Her grandpa passed away. Going
to let you know when things settle a bit. Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 29, 2010 - Email
Message -
Hi. I was feeding the baby and now Akiko called and wants to be picked up. Will
try to send email tonight. I am happy you are nice anytime. Thanks. |
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April 1, 2010 - Email Messages -
Hi. Maybe for a few months and then coming back. It is for Akiko. Anytime she
likes to be alone. If I am teaching abroad then she can really be alone and see
if she is happy. Then it means she is better to be single. It is my idea now. It
is a difficult decision. I really do not want to leave. Going to think a lot
this weekend. Now drinking next bottle. Waiting for you to talk. Send email when
you can. ********
Actually I want to go where there is a lot passion. I can easily get a job in
China or Thailand but thinking about South America. Everything is crazy now. It
is difficult to know the best decision. I want everyone to be happy. Send email
if you can. ********
Actually I really do not want to go. Akiko anytime talks about being alone. It
is very sad for me. Now very happy in this house and this neighborhood. There is
no decision only talking now. ********
Actually if I were to go then going to send most money back. The house will be
almost perfect before leaving because worry about them anytime. Again this is
only talking now and no decision. ********
Again I really do not want to leave. Going to leave only if Akiko really wants
to be alone. A lot of thinking now. ********
Now Akiko agrees with me leaving for a few months. Going to eat more from now.
Will look for you to send email later tonight. ********
Hi. I need to be with someone who wants to be with me very much. I was in
relationships before where my girlfriend gave me the same love and passion I
gave to them. Akiko cannot give to me and I am feeling very alone in Japan and
in this situation. It is very difficult for me. Akiko cannot understand my needs
because her personality is very different. I cannot feel accepted from her and
from her family. Now I am really gaijin and it is sad. Every night I am drinking
a lot. It is strange for me. Before not drinking alcohol because happy. Now
drinking to feel better. It is not good. Everything seems unfair now but still
can find happiness. Going to eat more now and look for you to send email again.
April 6, 2010 - Email Messages -
Hi. I want to be straight with you.
I know I am married.
It is difficult for me to control feelings.
It is same for me.
Your eyes are very beautiful.
You are a very pretty woman.
You make me crazy when we meet.
Please do not think I am an awful person now.
I am simply feeling things for you.
Need to sleep soon.
Now almost 24 hours awake and a lot of work today.
Want to see you.
Send email when you can.
Maybe going to sleep now.
Thinking about you.
Talk to you again. ********
Ikuko.
Hi. I am very passionate person anytime.
I can feel many things anytime.
It is difficult for me in this world.
Many people cannot understand me for sure.
My passion level is very high and different from others.
Now I am thinking about you a lot during the day.
I am trying to control my feelings but cannot.
Please try to understand.
Do not want to be awful.
Simply want to be honest with you.
Going to sleep now and thinking about you.
Want to see you.
Send email and I can read in the morning.
Talk to you again.
Howie.
April 7, 2010 - Email Messages -
Recently we became like boyfriend and girlfriend.
It is nice for sure. ********
Actually I think about love recently.
Many levels exist for love.
Many people you love in different ways.
It is different for family and friends.
I can say now I want to see you more and more.
Yes it is difficult but it is a good feeling for both of us.
Really want to know your thinking. ********
Actually Akiko knows about us.
It is easy for anyone to see.
Maybe she can be more free to be alone.
Everyone is different with many needs and desires.
Now I want to see you and look into your eyes again. ********
Now I am really tired.
I am going to sleep.
I want you to dream about us alone together.
Then tomorrow I want to know the details of your dream.
Until then.
April 8, 2010 - Email Messages -
Ikuko.
Hi. I know we like each other.
You should not worry about this.
Maybe you are lonely in some way.
Maybe I am lonely in some way.
I spent many years unhappy.
I want to be happy.
I want to be honest about feelings.
If you are not comfortable with this situation then it is not good.
If it is good for you then you and I should continue.
It is good feeling for you and me to see each other.
I think we should continue.
It can be our own little world.
It can make us happy.
Please do not worry about anything.
Enjoy the time together.
Send email when you can.
Howie. ********
Actually I think about you a lot.
I really miss looking into your eyes.
It seems like we do not meet for many months even though only a few days.
I want to come to your house for nabe party soon.
I want to drink a lot.
Then I want to lost all inhibition and kiss you again.
Send email when you can. ********
Yup. Many pictures. I waited for you outside tonight but it was not a good time
for you.
I want to know what you would do if I kiss you.
Send email when you can. ******** Did you wait for me outside tonight? when? if
you kiss me? um....I don't know now. But maybe I feel a little ashamed. ********
Maybe I cannot wait to touch you and kiss you.
Sometimes I think about you at night.
It feels good.
I want to know if you think about me an night.
I enjoy this time with you.
Waiting for your thoughts. ********
Maybe a bit lonely.
Feeling good if drinking wine.
Maybe easier to tell you many things.
Want to tell you something but too embarrassed.
Maybe you will not be happy about it now.
Not sure about your thinking. ********
It is very distant.
I really enjoy sex and touching.
I am strange for my age.
Are you good to talk about these things. ********
For many years.
I like excitement and passion.
I am thinking about you.
Maybe better not to say more now unless you want.
April 9, 2010 - Email Messages - Because we are online now.
If we meet directly, see your eyes, and hug.
You make me fall in love, even though I should not do.
Ikuko. ********
Sleeping in the other room. ********
Hi. I think you are sleeping.
Now really wet.
Want you to taste it.
Now I am really falling asleep.
I want you to think about me when you are in bed tonight.
I want you to touch yourself and feel good.
Meet tomorrow then.
Good night.
Talk to you again. ********
Actually not enough detail.
Going to cum now.
Good night.
Talk to you again.
Until then.
April 12, 2010 - Email Messages -
Yes for sure.
Now very genki.
Going to do something now.
April 14, 2010 - Email Messages -
Ikuko.
Hi. I want to talk to you about many things.
It is difficult now because you are working and I am trying in finish this
house.
I am thinking about many things these days.
Maybe I am going crazy.
Soon there will be a time for you and I to meet and talk.
Recently I am sad and disappointed too about the email you and I sent.
This is why I really do not like email.
It is possible for many miscommunications.
Really want you to wait.
I like you very much.
You and I need to think about everyone around.
It is difficult to find a balance between the things you are supposed to do and
the things you want to know.
You should know I am thinking about you and there will be a time to talk. or know at least you and I can talk about many things online.
It is a little world for you and me.
Something you and I can enjoy and be happy.
There is no need to be crazy and think too much.
You like me and I like you and should enjoy.
Please do not think too much.
Everything is good.
Be happy and enjoy the time you and I can spend together.
I am going to eat cookies and drink tea from now.
Then back online to see if you send email.
Until then.
Howie. ********
Ikuko.
Hi. I am very drunk tonight.
Do not think too much.
I am going to talk to you this weekend.
Simply be happy.
There is no problem.
Do not worry.
Going to sleep now.
Talk to you again.
Howie.
April 19, 2010 - Email Messages -
Ayumi.
Hi. I am drunk again as usual. Today thousands of bees came back to the
property. It was incredible. There is a lot of drama in this neighborhood. It is
crazy and fun. I know you said you miss me very much. Maybe my penis. I am
thinking about sex again. Many things to talk to you about. Send email when you
can.
Howie ********
Hi. I sent email to your keitai a couple times but the email was returned. Maybe
your mail if full now. Yes no problem about the bees but thinking about my
decision to purchase this house. I am happy to meet you. For sure you are very
pretty. Talk to you again. ********
Ikuko.
Hi. I am very drunk now.
Need to sleep.
This was not a good week.
Now I am not feeling good.
Problem with arms again.
There were many bees.
Thinking about you.
It was nice to see you the other day.
Going to try to send email tomorrow night.
Want you to think about me when you go to sleep tonight.
Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 21, 2010 - Email Messages -
This morning I woke up and thought about you.
I became very hard and came.
It was nice thinking about you in this way. ********
Want to know if you would be happy if I touch you and make you come now.
******** I think the only way to drink a lot for me to become crazy. I didn't
drink today. But I want touch, hug and kiss.
Ikuko. ******** You are very Genki now though I know you are very tired today.
What's up today? You are most impressed man for me I have ever met. I want to
exchange mail with native before, but I think every American is like you? I want
to know how American love each other? please express your experiences. ********
Really try not to misunderstand.
No American is like me especially this age.
I am very powerful and extremely strong mind.
I can feel things other people cannot feel.
It is my strength and also a problem.
Many times difficult for people to understand.
I am very lonely anytime.
I am feeling alone in this world.
It is sad for me.
I want this world to be better.
I cannot find someone to understand me anytime.
Many Americans only think about themselves.
I am very different.
I want you to know me as much as possible.
I like you very much. ********
Actually I am very alone now.
Akiko is a different kind of woman and not good at being a couple.
Tonight I am sleeping in another room.
I am not getting anything I want from her anytime.
It is sad but it is our reality now.
I really like the things you say to me and it makes me happy.
You are very nice. ********
Actually I want to see you now if possible.
April 23, 2010 - Email Messages -
Actually was messed up from yard work. Are you good for massage. Send email when
you can. ******** Planning to work outside tomorrow. It would be nice to see
you. Waiting for BBQ party and get drunk with you. Maybe can kiss you if you
want. ******** Yes going to sleep in same room but alone. Need to touch myself.
It is lonely. Think about you again. ******** No. She will
do anytime. She is not passionate person. I can feel very
much from anything. From sex, food, music. It makes me
crazy. Want to feel with someone. Cannot with her because
nothing is important for her. Many arguments because of
this. I think you can know about this thinking. ******** In
other relationship yes. With Akiko cannot. She does not need
from anyone anything. ******** Actually I love Akiko very
much. But very angry because she cannot give me things I
need. It is her personality. It is problem for long time.
Many times we talk about splitting the last few months but
stay together. I think we are a good couple but very
different. Cannot understand each other. Recently Ayumi
stayed my home. Ayumi is same as me. Sex is really good. It
is difficult for us to control when we see each other. It
feels good. ******** Actually it is not sexless. I want
Akiko to appreciate me as a man. Every day working hard for
my family. Many men do nothing for their family. Actually
family is everything for me. Akiko like the baby but could
easily be without me. It is like I am not important for her.
It is incredibly sad for me. Many times I am working a lot.
She does not come to visit when I am working. She does not
worry about me. You worry about me and it feels good. This
is my only family now but feel really really really really
lonely. It is awful for me. Now I am happy in Japan and in
this house and with the baby. My wife is a stranger for me
anytime. I am fighting to stay with her and be a family. My
passion stays inside and I try to control but difficult.
Need and want to feel many things anytime. I do not know
what to do anymore. You make me happy when I see you for
sure. ******** Actually Akiko will do sex anytime. She is
not tired. I am doing everything for her. I feed the baby
and give bath every night when finished working on house.
The problem is there is only passion if I begin. I want her
to come to me sometimes. I say nice things to her anytime.
She is pretty. I like her cooking. She cannot say anything
nice about me. I married her. I gave her a baby. I moved to
Japan. I bought a house. I spent money for this house. I
spend my energy for this house. I feel awful everyday
including back and legs. I get many problems from her crazy
family. Even then I am not give up. But recently my passion
is getting stronger. My loneliness is getting stronger.
Maybe I am going to be crazy. I want you to understand all
this. ********
This is not about sex.
I can sex anytime.My ex girlfriends know about my power in bed.
I can cum and stay hard and cum again.
I am very good at sex.
I am not looking for this.
I want someone to feel the same excitement.
For a food, for a sunrise, for a sunset, for wine, for everything in this world.
Akiko cannot get excited about anything and this is the lonely point. ********
Yes, I can understand very well.
If I was you, maybe I thought same as your thinking.
You are very good husband I think.
Usually almost people become to have lazy day everyday if he is in the house all
day.
But you are defferent, you are not that man.
So I respect you very much and envy Akiko. ********
Maybe not good to say jibun de but I am a very good husband.
Everything if for my family.
Akiko does not realize she has a good situation.
If she is with another man maybe very difficult for her.
Many times I want her to be with someone else.
Then she can learn and appreciate me.
I feel good these day because of you and your kind words. ********
Now I am really tired and need to sleep.
Working a lot tomorrow.
I want to know the times you will come to this place.
I want to see you.
Send email when you can.
April 29, 2010 - Email Messages -
Ikuko.
Hi. I was happy to see you again. Now Akiko is with her family. The baby is with
me at home. Maybe see you again. Until then.
Howie ********
Ikuko.
Hi. I want to talk with you about many things.
I think you can understand anytime.
It seems difficult for you and I to be alone and talk.
Many people around.
I want to make time with you from next month.
Send email when you can.
Howie. ********
Ikuko.
Hi. I am not sending email much these days because of thinking.
I am trying to decide many things now.
I want to talk with you directly but it is difficult.
Maybe at the BBQ party.
Send email when you can.
Howie.
April 30, 2010 - Email Messages -
Ikuko.
Hi. I know you are sleeping but want to thank you for the email you sent. This
is another difficult time with Akiko and family but going to get through it.
Really want to talk to you about many things. You worry about me and it makes me
happy. You are very nice anytime. Really want to see you again.
Howie. |
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